I was once told these words by a wonderful young man: 

"You are a very beautiful girl, and I would be very lucky to have you.

But, maybe in another life."

Those 4 words have never left my head, heart, or hope.

Maybe sometime down the road we might meet up at the right time. 

We could finally have a normal friendship, and maybe, hopefully,

A Relationship.

This young man has impacted me more than anyone will ever know.

He has taught me so much about myself, others, himself, and about life.

I cannot truly put into words how amazing, confusing, delicate, handsome, wonderful,

astonishing, or different he is. Anytime I try

to explain him to someone, my stomach turns and tosses in 

a hundred different directions. But, lets face it, even if I was given a lifetime to talk

about him, there would be plenty more left unspoken.

And unspoken words are just feelings you are too afraid to admit.

- You will never see this. And I don't wish you did. I just hope you

meet somebody that influences you the way you did I.

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I feel like the more time passes that my "best friend" and her significant other are together, the further her and I grow apart; and it really does suck. I have a boyfriend also and I would still make time for her, I would drop everything I HAD to do if she needed best friend time. But she isn't doing the same thing for me. Maybe this is a lesson learned, showing me that just because I give somebody my all, doesn't mean they will do it also, but I already knew that.. Maybe it's my bad Karma, finally catching up to me for something I didn't apologize for.. Whatever the reason; It Sucks.